Tonight I go to meet the significant other’s friends. I’m told they’re an interesting group who say whatever is on their minds. That’s fine with me because I prefer people to be honest instead of having to guess how they feel. So, tonight should be an interesting night. Right now, my Calico, Paisley is laying on my arms as I write this. I’m just lucky she’s not laying on the keyboard, which is what she usually does. With that being said, it’s time for me to sign off.
Yesterday I had a day off from work. Somehow I always find myself dealing with work on my days off in one form or another. Whether it’s on the phone or that I have to go up there for a brief amount of time. We had a meeting yesterday and just as I was walking out of there, my phone started vibrating. It was my significant other. I was talking to one of the other managers, so I decided I would call him back when I left. I had to go stick something in my box and then I was on my way out. My boss stopped me before I could leave. Right before that my phone started vibrating once again. Since I had talked to my significant other only a couple of hours earlier, I knew something was up. I immediately called him when I got outside. He started babbling and wasn’t making much sense. I had to stop him and ask him to repeat what he said.
He has a daughter from a relationship he had with his high school sweetheart before he met me. She’s 19 now and completely lost. She called him yesterday and dropped the bombshell on him that she’s pregnant. Oh goodness. Even the thought of us being grandparents at this age…wow! And yes, I include myself in this equation because we intend to see this thing through, us, I mean. There’s no uncertainty in either of us whether this will work out. Anyway, he had already made plans with friends last night to celebrate a birthday. He decided to go talk to his daughter instead to find out what her plans are for this. I sent him a text after a couple of hours and told him to let me know how it went. He called me not long after that to tell me it’s like talking to a brick wall with her. But she plans to keep the baby and see things through. Both of us know it won’t be easy for her. The chances of her staying with her boyfriend are slim.
He told me that since she couldn’t let him know about her situation face-to-face, he dropped the bombshell on her too. He told her we have reconciled and he explained to her that things didn’t work out with us before because of what he had done. She had some questions, but she was excited. I was so relieved! Next, he plans to tell his mother. He also told his daughter that she will have to tell his mom about her situation. I’m shocked about all this, but at the same time, I’m excited. Our daughter is excited that she’s going to be an aunt. I think that once the dust settles and everyone gets over the shock, everything will be just fine.
My baby’s been gone since Thursday. The girls were both gone to friends sleepovers all weekend. So other than work, I was by myself. The good news is that the girls will be back today and I get to see my sweetie tomorrow night. He called this morning to tell me about his weekend. Ten minutes later, he called back just because he missed the sound of my voice 🙂 Sighs..I’ve got it bad!
I cancelled my movie package through my satellite because it cost $25 a month. Ouch! So, I switched to Netflix. I finally got off my duff and ordered my first movie. I’ve ordered all classics because those are the absolute best! The first one I ordered is Same Time, Next Year. It’s an Alan Alda movie about two people who are married to others, but meet once a year. Then I ordered Arsenic and Lace, another good one. Now all I gotta do is wait for it to come in!
A little over a week ago, my significant other dropped the L word. And I did the same. There was a lot of emotion that went along with it, a bit of crying…on my part. Not sadness or anything like that, jsut emotion. But yep…I’m in love.
My significant other and I had a nice talk about Sunday evening. He knew I was upset and why. I was completely upfront with him and explained to him that even though he meant one thing, it translated as something else. I told him that what he had said was really messed up. I explained that he needs to think about how something will sound to the other person before those words leave his mouth. He was sincerely sorry and had worried all day that he was going to lose me again. I assured him that I’m not going anywhere, unless he gets stupid and breaks my heart again. And then there are no more second chances.
He decided a couple of weeks ago that he wants to take me to Cancun. Mexico? With the way things have been going there? I’ll have to think about that one. We had a gentleman from our fly-fishing club that went on a fishing trip and ended up missing. That was two years ago and they never found him. Plus, I told him there’s no way he’s getting me in a two-piece. But, a trip does sound nice. My favorite vacation spot, thus far, is Broken Bow, OK. Love that place! It’s such a nice, quiet small town 🙂
To his friends and co-workers, he calls me his ole lady or ole girl. I’ve never been real fond of that term, but that’s jsut his way and I’m not going to try to change that. His friends think we sit around and mate all the time. Well, we do that alot but it’s not all we do. I only know one of his friends, but the others I haven’t met yet. He doesn’t think I’m ready for them because they say whatever they feel. I told him I’m not scared of them, but I’m sure I’ll have a story to tell after I do meet them.
Anywho, time for me to sign off. Ciao.
Why is it that certain ex’s clearly don’t want you in their life, but every now n then they’ll voice their regrets (even though the last time that happened has been about a year). They’ll do little things, leave little comments here n there to let you know they’re still around. And they check up on you, and you know they do…still. Is it curiosity or what? They’ve always known how you’ve felt, even though they say they don’t. Deep feelings like that don’t jsut go away, at least for a woman. A woman’s heart is a deep ocean 😉 (Titanic) And then, when they know you have someone else in your life, they make a generic snide remark for everyone to see. Noone catches on that the remark has a purpose but you, and you know what that purpose is. If you don’t care, then why mess with the other person? Hmmz? Is it because even though you don’t want that person, you don’t like it that they’ve moved on? Clearly you don’t want to be in their life, and you are still afraid to be happy. But be happy for them!
That’s what my man has…baggage. Aren’t men supposed to be the strong ones? Not only that, but I’m sick of people not stopping to ask themselves if they really should say something before they say it. And then when they do say it, they’re surprised at your reaction. Yes, you pissed me off last night (not that you will ever be reading this because you don’t get on the internet). And surprise! I almost left your house when you reacted the way you did to my reaction, which is why I told you we didn’t need to talk about it any longer. Yes, I realize it put a damper on the rest of the evening because I could think of nothing else but your unbelievable question and comment. And then it pissed me off when you were trying to be funny about my choice of music. I know you were trying to make me laugh, but I was already put off by you. I happen to love jazz, don’t knock it or get out of my car 🙂 Currently, I’m doing much soul-searching. And we are to talk tonight. Even though I would love nothing more than to keep my thoughts to myself, we promised that we wouldn’t hide anything from each other. Honesty. Well, tonight you’re getting brutal honesty. I know we’re nowhere even close to where we should to talk about what we did last night. But don’t be all flip-floppy on me. Somehow, I don’t think you’ll like what I have to say tonight and vice versa. And for once, don’t bring what that whore did to you into it. I’m not her you dumbass and you know that because you were with me for 6 friggin years before that skanky bitch! Quit punishing me for what she did to you and bringing your recycled bullshit into our relationship! Sighs.
So, some of you may have noticed that I changed my status on fb. My oldest sister commented on it, wanting to know what was going on. I ignored her comment. I have nothing to say to her. If there weren’t people from work on my friend’s list, I would tell her it’s none of her effing business. Why? Because between her and my other sister, they have always felt it’s their mission in life to discuss my personal life with my mom. As a result, my mom questions me about it. Which almost always ended up in an argument. I am…how old now? Not that it matters, since it’s been going on my entire adult life. My oldest sister quit being my sister 3 and a half years ago when she got in the middle of a falling out I had with my other sister. Instead of finding out info from both sides, she heard my middle sister’s side of things and instantly chose sides. Followed by a screaming phone call to me. Since then, my relationship with her has been non-existent. Needless to say, she’s remained close to my other sister.
Since I was the youngest, they decided when we were kids that I was the ‘chosen’ one of the 3 of us. And they carried that mentality into adulthood. Rather childish. My sisters have been two of those people who take religion a little too far. The type of people that view themselves as holier than thou and me? They’ve always looked down on me as the black sheep of the family. Even though I earned that title between the ages of 18 and 20. Nevermind that I have a successful career and have raised my kids on my own. None of that matters to them. Forget that my other sister has ‘fallen from grace’ in recent years. Hypocrites.
So, I’ll continue to ignore her. I refuse to carry on this ‘pretend’ sisterhood with her. Of course, I’ve no doubt that she won’t hesitate to ask my oldest daughter and/or my mom what’s going on. Nosey bitch. I really don’t care to listen to a lecture from her or her option at all. Or how if her husband did the things mine did, blah blah blah. I can just hear it now. My significant other and I have already decided that if someone, friend or family, doesn’t like our decision…tough shit. Including his mom, thank God! Only took him 16 years to decide to stand up to her! Anyway, I just don’t understand why people can’t just wish others luck. Whether they agree with their decisions or not. As long as they’re happy, isn’t that what SHOULD matter? Sighs. /End rant.
It’s official…I’m back in a relationship. Wish me luck! I hope this one goes well!