Last night, I spent some time with SO. He was on call with the wrecker all weekend, but luckily he didn’t get a call while I was over there. One of the things we enjoy doing is jsut snuggling in each others arms, it’s our quiet time. I cherish it because it’s something we never did before. I also sometimes worry that he’ll eventually grow tired of it like most men do. They become too comfortable with the person they’re with and they jsut quit trying. It’s happened to me before with others from the past and I hope that doesn’t happen with us again. He quit trying after we got married and I’ll be heartbroken if he gets that way again. He was especially quiet last night and I knew something was on his mind. I asked him a couple of times, but there was no getting anything out of him. Eventually he admitted there is something he’s not telling me, but said he would tell me eventually. He also told me he’s done nothing wrong, that he hasn’t done anything he shouldn’t. I told him I know he hasn’t. I do, however, worry about what it could be. The first thing that came to mind is the possible skin cancer. I can’t handle any bad news when it comes to him. During this time he continually caressed my ring finger and I could tell he was deep in thought. I jsut wish he’d tell me whatever it is. I hate not knowing and I hope I can handle whatever it is that he has to tell me.
Not really…SO called me a few minutes ago and informed me that SHB is getting a divorce. Yes, already. Word has it that she’s saying her new hubs drinks too much, she’s one to talk. From what I understand, she’s been referred to on more than one occasion as an alcoholic. I told SO that I’m sure he’ll be hearing from her real soon. He always does. I’m so sick of her.
Tomorrow I’m going out-of-town to help with inventory on the last two stores. I’ll be back on Friday, then Saturday I’m taking defensive driving. I’m still ticked at that stupid cop from December! I hope everyone is having a happier week than me 🙂
Tonight I was supposed to go see SO, but he’s still feeling a bit under the weather. He’s actually feeling worse and we’re afraid it’s either turning into bronchitis or pneumonia. He called me earlier this afternoon telling me that the doctor prescribed him something different since what he gave him is not working. I thought it best that I stay home tonight and then see how he is tomorrow. Tater and I decided to watch some old movies. Since I’m a classic movie buff, I chose An Affair to Remember, one of my favorites. Tater really got into it and at the end, I always cry even though I know what’s going to happen. As I was crying, I looked over at her and she was wiping tears from her face as well. We both started laughing. I asked her if she liked the movie, and she said she liked it a lot. She never cries during movies, it’s always me lol. Right now, she’s on the phone with one of her friends. So, here I am hittin the blog lol. It’s a good night 🙂
After spending the early part of my day sleeping, eating crackers & soup and my favorite flavor of Lifewater….I’m feeling better. Tomorrow I have the day off and have not made any plans for the day other than to go see SO tomorrow night. I’m considering getting a flu shot before I go over there, I wonder if it will help.
SO has the flu and I have a horrible stomach ache. It started last night when I had little Humphrey with me to buy some cat food. There’s nothing worse than to start feeling bad away from home. Sadly, I have to be at work in an hour. I’ve been sipping on Sprite and munching on crackers since last night. I’m hoping I have something in my medicine cabinet for this. Sighs. Off I go…(maybe I’ll feel better when I get home tonight and I can blog more then!)
and say phew! Someone who has been with our store since we opened is quitting this week and tomorrow is his last day. The general consensus is pretty much the same among our team, it will be a weight off of our shoulders and will be like a breath of fresh air. Someone described him today as being a curmudgeon, which is the perfect word for him. Of course when I heard this, I instantly thought of Nirvana lol.
This last weekend we went to see my favorite Texas country group, the Randy Rogers Band. (I’ve posted a couple of their videos in my music section. The first one is one of my favs.) I’ve loved their music since the first time I heard it almost a decade ago. They had it in the Expo Center, which is where they hold rodeos. So, it might as well been outside. It was in the low 20s that night, so it was really cold. We sat in the bleachers, which are directly in line with the doors (which were open), so it was absolutely freezing the later it got. Finally, we couldn’t take it any longer. We left about 30 minutes early. I could no longer feel my feet and SO was having problems with his neck and back hurting. Something he’s had to deal with since he was almost killed when he flipped his truck back in August.
One thing I didn’t mention is that he kept hinting at something that night. During the concert, he would be holding my left hand and would focus on my ring finger. I wear a sapphire ring on that finger because I like the ring and that’s the finger it fits. He told me several times while taking that finger in his hand that he’s going to change that, meaning the ring. What can I say to that? I’ve known for a while that he’s been thinking about it. But if and when he decides to make that move, it will take me by surprise.
Sunday he starting feeling bad. His stomach was bothering him and he was running a fever. Last night I stopped by to check on him. On the way there, I stopped at the store and got him some cold medicine, several cans of microwaveable soup and some Vicks Vapor Rub. His best friend brought him soup yesterday as well. He was scheduled to go to the chiropractor today, but he opted for his regular doctor.
He called me today after he got through with his appointment. It turns out that he has the flu, but the doctor also found something that I wasn’t expecting. When SO called me, he told me his doctor found skin cancer. He couldn’t tell me the technical name of it and I don’t know if there’s more types than melanoma. He said when it grows, it’s like fingers or spider legs and goes into the tissue. His doctor gave him something to put on it that is supposed to draw it back to the originating cell, which would make it easier to remove when they do the biopsy.
He called me later and asked me not to tell the kids, he doesn’t want them to worry. I’m still trying to grasp this myself. His father had skin cancer for many years, but ended up dying from a brain aneurism. I want to do research on this, but on the other hand, I don’t. When I found out that I had polyps in my uterus, I turned to the internet and what I read scared the hell out of me. SO told me he doesn’t want me to worry, even though he knows I will. He says we’ll jsut take this as it comes and we’ll get it taken care of. Still, it wasn’t the news I wanted. I just have to stay positive and pray that when the time comes, the doctor gets it all.
finally changed her name on Facebook. Bout dang time! Anywho, sometimes SO gets worried that I’m gonna be mad at him for somethin really stupid that’s 9 times outta 10, beyond his control. Like when he hurt his back over the weekend. I’ve suspected for some time now that this fear stems from his relationship and very short-lived marriage to the Witch(aka skanky hoe bag…SHB). A couple of nights ago, I asked Tater if SHB got mad at her dad often for stupid things while they were still together. She said yes, all the time. jsut as I suspected. She said they fought all the time, and usually SHB started it. Tater told me many stories about SHB, things she’d never told me before. She’s an even more horrible person than I originally thought. Tater said her dad was always very unhappy when he was still with her. I’m quite the opposite of SHB. I rarely get mad and try not to show my anger. And when I do get mad, it’s not over something ridiculous. I know it will take him some time to get used to being with someone normal again, sad as that is. But, I’m patient.
It feels so weird to have one, after having gone years without one. Aside from being Mom, I have things to do regularly. I’m still getting used to it. Yesterday we went to a small town about 40 miles from here to a 4-wheelin event that took place on a 2500 acre piece of land. That night, they held a Neal McCoy concert. We got there a little after 1pm and started riding the trails. After a few hours, I started feeling one of my infamous headaches coming on. Being accustomed to the frequency of my headaches, the S.O. brought some BC powder along for me. We stopped for a bit, ate and I sipped on my Lifewater (i love that stuff!).
For the past week, the weather has been bad. By bad, I mean that we’ve had freezing temps all week. Thursday night a winter storm came through so it sleeted all night. Friday morning I got up and my car was literally frozen. I took pics too. It took me about 40 minutes to get the ice off my windowshield/windows.
Anyway, back to my story. Because it freezed over Thursday and Friday, I guess people were afraid to make the trip out there Saturday. Only about 70 people showed up and it was butt cold. There was still ice on the ground, very muddy and of course, freezing. But, no way I was going to miss the concert. Riding the 4-wheeler was fun, but it’s not one of my favorite things to do. It makes me a little uneasy to be traveling speeds up to 60mph out in the woods. When we stopped to address my headache and empty tummy, Neal McCoy was doing a sound check. So along with about 10 other people, we stopped to listen for a while. After that, we hit the trails again before the concert. Like I said, it’s jsut not my thing. I like to stay safe as opposed to being reckless, but that’s jsut me. After a couple of more hours, we loaded up the 4-wheeler and went to the outside stage area – still covered in East Texas’ notorious red mud. The concert was probably one of the best I’ve ever been to. Not only because there were only about 70 people there, but because he put on one of the best shows! He was funny and interacted with the fans and jsut has an amazing voice. After jsut 3 songs, he sang our song. I had to remind S.O. that we even had a song back in the day, funny thing is that he was the one that had picked it out all those years ago. When he started singing it, I told S.O. that was our song and he held me tight and started singing along. I was surprised he even remembered the words (country is not his choice of music).
Today, I’m super soar from riding the 4-wheeler. For the most part, other than having the kah-kah scared out of me, we had a good time 🙂
I hate this weather! It’s 18 degrees here in East Texas this morning. My doggies water is frozen solid through. Even though we have no set seasons here, we’re still not used to it. For the last week, I worked overnight. It’s inventory time again and ours was early last week. I had to work overnight two nights before inventory to tag the store. Then two nights after ours, I had to go do another store’s. Next week I have to do another one and then two more close to the end of the month. I’ll be glad when this month is over. I’ll be even more glad when I get my tax refund so I won’t be so friggin broke! I’d post more right now, but I’m too friggin cold!